I don't know what to do. If she were any other person, I wouldn't be around her. Am I supposed to believe that all of the moral standards that I have held myself up to for the last 20 years of my life, simply don't matter. Am I supposed to be around people who think the moral code I hold myself to as insignificant? Am I supposed to be with someone who always decides that the prospect of me being mad at her is worth doing whatever she knows I'll be mad about? She knows that the decisions she's made lately haven't sat well with me, but she still makes them. She knows I'll forgive her. Sometimes I don't know if I want to forgive her. Sometimes, I wonder if I am able to not forgive her. It's something that's really bugging me. I don't know. I don't know if I should believe in my morals anymore. If I believe in them, I'll have to bend them when she breaks them. If I don't believe in my morals anymore, I won't be so disappointed when she does.
I guess I just won't believe in anything at all.
So, the book of Genesis is a musical... It's amazing how influential religion is on the world of music. Just refer to every grammy/CMT/MTV award winner's speech. They would like to thank god for giving them the ability to create what is most likely the equivalent of producing what sounds like every other piece of shit out there today. How blessed they are to be like everybody else. How blessed they are to be taking complete advantage of the masses without them being smart enough to realize it's actually happening.
Who would Buddha like to thank? Would he like to thank the universe? Would he thank anybody?
He wouldn't even accept an award. Why should a person receive an award for doing their job? If you are an entertainer, you should realize that you are in that business to do just that: Entertain. Unfortunately, it's become just that: a business. The world of music has become something that it wasn't meant to be. Music is something that is meant to be shared between people. Most of what is being put out there couldn't even be considered as music. All of the "music" that is produced sounds like everything else that is out there, and the people who are doing something different are getting caught in the tidal wave of shit.
When is comes down to it, if I want to hear a musical about Buddhism, I'm either going to have naked women dancing with him, or I'm going to have to write it myself.
The Teddy Bear. The ultimate form of unconditional love, compassion, and safety. When kids are little, they find sanctuary in this piece of fabric stuffed with cotton. This safety net is something that helps us grow up with a sense of security.It takes away our fears, and gives us light, warmth, and happiness. This bear is the symbol of safety. It represents the innocence of childhood. Something that has long since been forgotten in our older years. To put your entire trust into an object, a friend, is something that has also been forgotten. We, as people, need to remember the innocence of our childhood. The memories of the past can/will be the tools that we can utilize to influence the future.
Throughout time, I've found that there are very few, if any universal truths.
If ever there was one, it is this:
You can tell how society is doing by analyzing their toilets.
True story.
Today, you'll find that you won't find anything other than an automatic toilet in most public areas. One might argue that the automatic toilet is an excellent innovation that promotes sanitary conditions. This isn't so. The automatic toilet has become an excuse to be incredibly lazy. That's how people are today. They are lazy.
People are kind enough to provide other people with a place to relieve themselves, and what do they do? They deface it! They carve obscenities onto the walls! Little shits...It's ridiculous how people can piss everywhere around the toilet. Wherever they feel like it. They are dirty, filthy, and disgusting. Toilets have gone from being manual to automatic in a matter of years. Just think how they will develop in the future.
so, my new job in the mailroom is going remarkably well. I like the job, I like the people work with, and I love the money I'm making. What I like the most about this job though is that I get to do the mail! I love it whe I get to sort packages. Some of the things we have to do could definitely be considered busy work. I worked almost 20 hours last week, and that doesn't sound like a lot to a bunch of people, but between school, homework, rehearsal, eating, and sleeping, it's pretty good. soon, I'm going to have to start paying off the 400 I owe the school, so that I can register for classes next semester. I get to go and drive the mail truck, and deliver packages. How cool is that? I do believe that I'll leave work a little early today though. I need to get something that resembles sleep. That, I haven't been doing lately.
So, I've found out that I am a "Lucid Dreamer". I have the ability to influence my dreams simply by realizing that I am dreaming. I find this absolutely fascinating. Buddhist Monks have been using this technique for centuries. It allows one to live out things that they would not normally live out in their conscious world.
Imagine being to do anything you want. You can fly, you can travel anywhere. the universe is at your grasp. The limits of our own mind can (and should) be broken. If you can break free of the limitations set in your mind, and the laws that bind man (Stopping at at red light, using the sidewalk), wouldn't that be complete freedom?
The first step is the hardest. You need to realize that you are dreaming. Your mind has its own logic, and it tells you that everything you are going through is completely okay, that it's natural. If you can tell yourself that you're dreaming, you can unlock limitless potential (In your dreams).
So, I've been hearing, seeing, choking on the death of Michael Jackson. I also realize that by even writing about it now, I'm giving it even more hype, but that may just be my delusion that people actually read this.
I honestly don't believe that Michael Jackson is actually dead, and even if he is dead his death comes at a completely convenient time for the American government. This often happens when the government needs to take peoples minds off of the troubles in the country. There are a lot of theories about how John F Kennedy was assassinated because he was in the process of a joint effort with the Russians about a trip to the Moon. Somebody somewhere didn't want that to happen, because there have been documented structures on the moon that resemble shelters that are not man made.
Now, they have ruled MJ's death a HOMICIDE!
Scenario:
You're the "King" of pop, and you have a personal doctor that you pay to take "care" of you, and you order this doctor to give you every painkiller known to man. End Scenario.
This Doctor who was only following orders is now held responsible for killing one of the most influential artists in the pop music industry. Yes. It was definitely murder. To me, it sounds like the people who are the beneficiaries of the multi-million dollar life insurance policy are trying to make a suicide look like a murder. It also looks to me that because of the level of celebrity influence in this matter, they have succeeded in it.
What happened to the recession? What happened to healthcare? What happened to everything not Michael Jackson? This is absolutely absurd!! The whole country comes to a screeching halt as soon as an overhyped celebrity dies? I'm sure the government and the banks really do appreciate the break we've (the American people) given this death. I would not be surprised at all if one day years down the road that Michael Jackson comes back into the public eye.The day of his funeral, everything on every channel was Michael Jackson. The only time that I've ever remembered that kind of news coverage, Two Towers came down, and the country was at war. So, Am I to believe that Michael Jackson's death even deserves that level of media coverage as one of the biggest terrorist attacks on our country? So it goes...
