Sojourn of Ben

I don't know what to do. If she were any other person, I wouldn't be around her. Am I supposed to believe that all of the moral standards that I have held myself up to for the last 20 years of my life, simply don't matter. Am I supposed to be around people who think the moral code I hold myself to as insignificant? Am I supposed to be with someone who always decides that the prospect of me being mad at her is worth doing whatever she knows I'll be mad about? She knows that the decisions she's made lately haven't sat well with me, but she still makes them. She knows I'll forgive her. Sometimes I don't know if I want to forgive her. Sometimes, I wonder if I am able to not forgive her. It's something that's really bugging me. I don't know. I don't know if I should believe in my morals anymore. If I believe in them, I'll have to bend them when she breaks them. If I don't believe in my morals anymore, I won't be so disappointed when she does.

I guess I just won't believe in anything at all.